"Christianity: The belief that some cosmic Jewish Zombie can make you live forever if you symbolically eat his flesh and telepathically tell him that you accept him as your master, so he can remove an evil force from your soul that is present in humanity because a rib-woman was convinced by a talking snake to eat from a magical tree. Makes perfect sense."


"Perception is relative, get used to it." is one of my life motto's :)

So...

I got my christmas present already and it is all installed, and I have done a couple lessons already of my new Rosetta Stone - French course :) I like it! It is very intuitive in how it was designed, it has been a lot of vocab and pronunciation and a few basic sentences and such, also a little bit of reading and writing as well.

My goal is to at the end of this all be able to watch the movie amelie, without subtitles and know what is going on and being said :D I know, not a very big goal for learning a new language, but a nice stepping stone :)

I haven't added the travel companion audio tracks to my iphone yet to listen to here at work, but will get around to that this weekend maybe :) The one thing I have noticed about the language is that the major difference in most instances the written version is way different than the spoken versions when you go from singular to plural :P

Oh well, it is all fun :) There are some sections coming up in the course plan that are more intensive reading/speaking so that will be the true test as to whether I am retaining it well or not :)

My first OMG moment was le poisson :D I started singing the song from the little mermaid and was like OOoohh.... so that is what they are saying :D

apparently :)

Thank you for reminding me of all that could have been, but never will happen.
Thank you for reminding me that there are reasons why we are where we are.
Thank you for reminding me about all of the good times along with the bad.
Thank you for reminding me why I stopped taking anything at face value.
Thank you for reminding me of loves lost, but also when they were found.
Thank you for reminding me that you guide us in the present.
Thank you for reminding me that history is not something that should be ignored.
Thank you for reminding me that it is ok to not rush through life.
Thank you for reminding me that history doesn't have to repeat itself.
Thank you for reminding me that friendships should be cherished.
Thank you for reminding me of what it is like to have a passion.
Thank you for reminding me of what it was like to trust someone.
Thank you for reminding me how to enjoy the hard times when they appear in the present.
Thank you for reminding me when I need to let go.
Thank you for reminding me of what to do when there is nothing left to try.
Thank you for reminding me of the power of imagination.

but most of all....

Thank you for reminding me what made me, ME!

Soo.... $605 dollars later I have a new drafting table, storage shelving, chair, and light headed to my house. I have over the past few weeks been finding a sheet here and there of old artwork, and realizing that I miss that part of my past. Somewhere along the way the joy of picking up a pencil or paintbrush left and that is a sad thing.

I found the book containing one of my favorite drawings of mine This is the picture and it made me smile, looking at projects that were tagged done, others that were sitting half way done, but it was my imagination brought to life. Then I thought about all of the watercolor things I have never shown anyone, and then I saw the dates, nothing since 2002.... no drawings, no paintings... nothing... So I thought it was high time I did something about it. I have started gathering up all of the supplies that I still have, and starting to get them all in the same location. This purchase is the last piece that is missing... a home to give all of this lost stuff.

Hopefully I will have something new to add to my galleries soon :) I hope that I haven't lost too much with all that time gone by :)

So what happens when "Throw Down with Bobby Flay" gets taken over by Tom Bergeron and it was a match against Angela Lansbury? Why a mulberry pie of course, because that makes complete sense.... *boggle* So Angela made the pie in no time flat, it was perfect! Tom kept sneaking pieces of it so she ended up with a very tragic looking pie, and with only minutes left on the clock (cuz it turned into an iron chef setting) dumped the mulberry pie into a blender, tossed it in a new pan, made a crisp topping mixture and tossed it in the oven, and in true TV cooking show magic, she waited 5 seconds, and pulled it back out completely baked and again a perfect creation :)

So yeah.... not sure what brought this on in a dream, but I haven't watched regular TV for over a week.... It was entertaining at least :)

Well after a bit of help, I now know what my Wii number is :)

Sooooo if you want to add me, it is 1324-4958-8629-3997

Leave me your number in a message and I will add you back :D

Sooo... over the course of the past few days, I have had a series of dreams which I feel is worth remembering even if only slightly.

The dreams all had the same premise. I was in a relationship with someone who was married, had children, and was completely a taboo for him. They all had various plots about being subversive and clever about spending any time together and keeping it all a very hush hush secret. I didn't mind all of this at all, though was sad that I could never actually have a "pure" relationship with just him. Like the ultimate in having to share, there was no room for jealousy or possessiveness. No ability for becoming co-dependent. In a sense it was my ideal relationship but lacking the primary concept of togetherness... if that makes any sense.

In my observations of relationships both my own and many many others, common elements for relationships passing past the basic stages of lust have one of those extra pieces... a need that has to be filled. There has to be something that the other person fills for it to even solidify to the state of jello let alone cement or beyond as far as stability is concerned. Not that it is a bad thing to have a need that someone else can fill, but it is part of the reason I think that some people are never meant to be in relationships... It isn't that such people don't have needs that can be filled by others, it is just that the ties that bind them to others aren't tying them to the same location too.

So yeah.... why would I have a repeat dream of this.... that is what I am so curious about...

So in the 10 minutes before my alarm went of this morning, the dreams were great :) lol at least they started out great... Due to some mental abstraction or maybe lack of attention on my part, my "partner" kept changing appearance, but the old version of their appearance never disappeared, and it eventually turned into an orgy of sorts... of what seemed to be teachers...

ANYWAYS, the dream turned into a nightmare after I hit the snooze button... There is no party killer like going down on a guy and they turn into a woman... Needless to say over the course of seconds, all the guys in the room wilted, and then popped in this crazy uber dork of a teacher dressed in a leather harness and leather jock strap looking thing that started in with the ladies, and I so tooooooootally had to wake up :D

There is nothing more nauseating than almost going down on a muff :P ugh... I am feeling ill now from that retelling of the story :D no offense to the girls :P lol just not my cup o tea :D

Do I know any other watercolor artists? Anyone? I have been pondering the lack of artists in my circle of friends that are in the same mediums as I like... and I can't think of any off the top of my head...

Alas... I shall have to go on a hunt for new friends? *shrugs* what a pain :P

I need a new disaster in the making project at work :) This one has gone all boring and routine in all of the aspects that I work on it in... I was having a great time dealing with the chaos and creating organized chaos :) as there is no real way to get rid of chaos completely without it getting boring really quickly :)

It has been a good year so far this year :) I got an Key results award from work, enough extra to pay off a credit card, with an empty credit card though I had to use it, so I bought a new computer tower :D I was totally in need of an upgrade :) So going from a Single processor to a Quad core processor :) YAY :)

Next on the list of things that I really really really need to work on is getting my artistic streak back, it is missing, and I can feel it. Also I found that in my research of my pool of friends I am lacking painters in the mix, watercolour to be more exact. I enjoy them but lack any desire to do anything with them, also having a place that is always set up for it might help, so that is my next home project :) drafting table with full setup for painting and such that I can leave all set up and ready to go whenever the mood strikes me... spending a half hour finding and setting everything up is very mood breaking :P

Lets see... what else... After I get me new computer I am hoping that the newness will make me depose the vegging state when I get home to get back into gaming, mainly because I have things I want to do and not enough time to do it all :( However I was informed that I might be getting a laptop soon thanks to my boss figuring out how to bypass the authorization process through the heirarchy causing a lot of the kiboshing of stuffs so that could add a little more time to the mix :) when I have to run reports and such my computer and access is all used, so I just have to twiddle my thumbs... I have much more entertaining uses of my time in mind if I could do so :)

Doodily Doo... yep yep and now I am ready to go home :) *wanders off and twiddles thumbs*

This one was set up like a small town, well suburb really... anyways the major plot line was their wishes would come true. All of them, exactly how they asked for them. This little issue of course has a whole slew of things that can happen :) There are two other plot points that were present. First off is that whatever they wished for, if it was unwished could never be wished for again. Secondly there was a young boy in orange, he was always part of the shot, but never a part of the action...

Anyways yeah.... the dream was way more entertaining than my little plot blurb... :P I have a cold, it is yucky and makes my head hurt :P Maybe I will expand on the plot when I am not ill, and can think better :) but when I woke up I totally saw this making an entire series :) Comedy, Drama, Suspense all rolled into one :) kinda like twin peaks (a sacredspud influence) that weird mix of genres.... :)

Are you supposed to starve a fever and feed a cold, or feed a fever and starve a cold? I always forget :P

hmm... how to explain it...

There were three children, each of them had died by various means, all out of neglect... the atmosphere of the location of the story was a large house, possibly a mansion sized place... the children lived their un-lives repeating the day of their deaths, starting each morning on a corporeal form, and after the time of their death ghosts doing what ghosts do :) and trapped in the cycle over and over...

After several days of this, the new residents of the house were panicked, there seemed to be a lack of power in the house... or uhh... was just adding special effects going on for my dream as that is what they do :)

ANYWAYS... after the people started to figure out what was happening with the dead children, they somehow came to the conclusion that to get the children to stop, they would have to save the children... The first child hand ended up hanging himself by accident, one of the living children in the house befriended one of the dead children in the morning hours when they were corporeal and nice still, and this is how I think they found out how to free them... *it is a little foggy* after a couple of attempts to keep them isolated in the kids room, keeping them entertained etc... at the time of their death they would just vanish and appear at the place where their death occurred, and go through it all again...

The part that was interesting was hearing the children talking to each other... talking about circular time reference points and quantum something something holding them in the perpetual loop that according to how this version of reality they were not supposed to have died, so to correct they were stuck in the time loop until someone did correct it. Though the children themselves didn't know what happened to them later in their own days which was sorta weird...

so anyways by the time I woke up, they had rescued the first one, and was working on the second kid who seemed to have gotten decapitated by falling off a ledge or something and landing on a hoe or some such thing... not sure... but yeah... it wasn't a horror movie... more of a suspense thing?

OH! lol and the plot twist the ghost kids are the parents of the parents of the living kids :)

Current Balance $0.00

What started as my largest debt is no more! :) After years and years of working on it when I could afford to I finally have gotten things stable enough to keep chipping away at this for almost 10 years now... While I still have some credit card debt, it is my debt and mine alone... nobody else is effected by it besides me :)

The largest yay factor for me isn't that it is paid off... but it is the last of my ties that have bound me to this location in the world... And now we can start working forward... no more do I need to walk around in circles waiting for this particular cloud to lift.... well it has!

So now I need to find a dream to follow and stick with it, it is time to put away the blinders, to re-expand my vision to what the entire world has to offer, not just what keeps me close to here... So here is to moving beyond the past and into the future *clinks bottle of soda*



on a side note... I bought a xbox 360 as a present to myself for paying off that debt :P it got here yesterday :) still have a couple more pieces that are still on their way, but at least the main piece is here now :)

A) An android that is a cross between the robot from I robot and AI (realistic features, learning about life, ninja like reflexes)
B) A murder to be solved (I think it was his creator, but not sure)
C) A fascination with the penis (everyone he has logged in his database he has a captured picture of it, aka spy tactics to get it)
D) A clan of ninja's bent on world domination

I don't know either, but it made for a great dream :) Mind you it got cut short by the alarm clock so I don't know how it tied together :D

unfortunately the sex scene that I recall still before it all fades away into nothingness of the day was the android getting a picture of someones dick he was getting blown by a woman though... lol so maybe the android is the gay reference in the dream.... silly dream mechanics :P

What does Giant rampaging demons, a ninja monk with mystic powers fighting said demons, and my hair stylist moving to Paris because he broke up with the ninja monk due to the rampaging demons have to do with each other? :P I don't know either, but it made for a good dream :)

Though my hair stylist better not have moved to Paris! :P

How does one turn on the audio in their mind? I can watch the movie, completely understand the mood, the atmosphere, the thoughts, the flow... everything... except no sound, no words, which of course makes it very hard to write it down :P

matchstyx said I should write a play, mind you this was months ago... but I finally had something that I could scale down enough to actually work on a stage :) let me tell ya, that is rough work! :D And now that I have the plot, worked out in my head, I can't hear the words that are going on... which of course makes it next to pointless :) as it doesn't work as a mime, but since I know the whole thing it doesn't play like a mime in my head... lol oh the complications....

Anyways... I will work on it I think when I am on vacation the week after next :) so a week of rain that week would be perfect :) out in the sun room, the sounds and sights of rain surrounding me from all sides... yep, that is perfect writing weather :D Otherwise... I might just play video games all week :D